Last night, I got some bad news. Something very sad has happened to an old co-worker of mine. My heart hurts for her and her family today. I can’t stop thinking about it. We’ve been entertaining this weekend so I’ve had to duck into the bathroom to have a little weep. It’s hard not to emotionally take it on. I feel it’s the most difficult thing that could ever happen to a woman.
When bad things happen, it does put your own issues into perspective and makes you feel very grateful for what you have. This will be, by far, the easiest gratitude post I will ever write. The words are so simple to type. Today, I am so very grateful for my healthy and happy children. Everyday, I feel like I’ve won a lottery because I am their mother. That is all I ever wanted to accomplish in my life…to be a parent. The travelling, the education, the career–that’s all just gravy. The greatest gifts in my life are and always will be my sons.
When I get down and out about my crappy pregnancy with E. or both of their premature births, I have to think of how lucky I am to have them in my life. Who cares how they came into this world. It wasn’t ideal but I have to let that go. I have two little miracles that call me “mama”. That’s all that really matters.